Ethan: First Day in School

"Hmmm....sure looks gooodddd."

"Should I???"

"Yah....why not! *chomp* *chomp* *chomp*"

Yup, it was my boy's first day at school last week. It was only for 5 hours and it's once a week. He gets to interact with kids his own age for a change instead of mummy all the time. He was alright while we were dropping him off at the school; all wide eyed and excited, squealing in his litted high-pitch toddler voice. It was all gggooodd...till we had to leave... We said our "enjoy", "love you" and "bye-bye"s and he looked at us, a realization in his eyes, boy, did he let it out!!! HE WAS BAWLING!!! His teacher had to carry him a little to comfort him while mummy decided to hide around the corner to pretend she had already left. It was miserable for me, they had to close the door in order for him to calm down and all I was left hearing was him screaming his head off!! I was so tempted to go into the room, get him and go back home. But I didn't, trying hard to convince myself that this is all good for him; get social skills, friends, education, blah blah blah....all the while, that little voice at the back of my head saying, "you're a terrible mother, dumping your kid there and walking away while he screamed!" Oh boy, all that GUILT!!!! Went home, cleaned the ktichen up (never had it been that clean!!), vacuumed, gardened a bit and just relax!!! BOY IT WAS GREAT!!!! All the guilt is still there but I felt I totally needed that alone time...:) And yesterday was Ethan's second time at school, he still screamed the minute he saw me leave, but he was ok after awhile. The best part was knowing that it's ok that Ethan was enjoying himself. Yes, he might screamed initially but he was having fun after that throughout the whole time in school and that's what count (yup, I called to check on Ethan and I saw him later when I picked him up, he was playing happily). So when Summer School ends and School Year starts, it would be twice a week....we'll see how he fares..*wink*